New Chapter?

New Chapter?

I think something is ‘happening’ in my life that I really don’t understand. So today I decided to start trying to write about it, and then maybe I will make some more sense of it.

Lets begin by going back in time to when I was 29. I was so worried that turning 30 was going to be depressing and I felt that I was in mourning for my youth. I predicted a miserable adjustment period, leading to a reluctant acceptance that my fun days were over. Then I turned 30 and nothing changed! There was no doom and gloom, which was greatly helped by celebrating with a holiday in the sun! Hallelujah!!!!

Fast forward to the present day….. and I am having a seriously tough time. I am months away from my (32nd) birthday, and I don’t feel like that’s the reason, however 3 months ago….. December 2016….. I moved house for reasons that are really ‘grown up’ haha We moved to an area with the best schools and chose a house that was tucked away from any main roads etc and opposite a quaint play park for our youngest. Also in December 2016….. I got married!

It is now March 2017 and I feel disorientated, lonely and basically the exact opposite of what I am ‘meant’ to feel! So why is this New Chapter not all flowers, smiles and wonderful walks in our new village??

Not to go into too much detail but I have had a fair few encounters with mental health issues in the past and I seriously began thinking that maybe I was reaching another depressive episode. However instead of just thinking ‘aha that’s what it is… I can sit back suffer the ride’ I decided to try and use the arsenal of tools I have been given by professionals in the past.

I began really thinking about and picking apart the reason why I am feeling low. During this process I have come to realise that I am going through a massive transition! Quite possibly the transition I ‘thought’ would happen when I left my twenties! I have left my comfort zone, quite literally by moving towns, and by status within my relationship. I am turning into the ‘adult – adult’ me, and I think it’s going to take some working at!

Now, I have two children and haven’t been partying and living the high life up until now and I never considered myself immature or ‘not an adult’, but I am realising that there are many chapters to being a ‘grown up’ and I am entering my next one!

So, I now begin; forming new friendships or as a very inspirational woman recently told me ‘find my tribe’, adapting to my new surroundings, which includes finding a new social scene where I don’t feel like I am drinking amongst the cast of a young reality TV show!!!, and most of all learning how to be happy wife!

Wish me luck and feel free to offer any advice!

Thanks for reading, N x

Advertisements
New beginnings…

New beginnings…

best-is-yet

Well Hi there! And welcome to my brand spanking new blog! First things first… I’ve never written a blog before & (please forgive me) I only began reading blogs very recently! So please be nice…. and patient with me 🙂

So, WHY have I decided to begin writing & what on earth am I going to write about? My ‘why’ is that I’ve got soooooo much whizzing round my head, some things are just plain old grumpy mum complaints, some funny & some things that just maybe would help or be useful to others!

Before I ‘try’ and explain what I may (or may not) write about, I’ll tell you a little about me:

I am a 31 year old mother of 2, living in Lancashire, UK and I recently (Dec 2016) married a very lucky man! As well as being an Independent Jamberry Consultant I also work for a company called Mad Science, where I visit a couple of Primary Schools a week to deliver an hour of fun science education during after school programmes. I suppose to sum me up I am a science loving mother and wife with amazing nails!

I think that is where I’ll start with my writing then:

  • Parenting
  • Family
  • Science
  • Jamberry

I hope you enjoy the ride and hopefully watch me grow and find my niche in this brand new world of mine.

Thanks for reading,

N x